Wednesday, August 09, 2006
was it reali my fault???
i tried tu make a conversation...
and u din show ani interest...
i din care...
bud u din care either...
i asked u a question...
and yet u lied tuu mii...
u said u werent tog wib him...
and i had tu believe...
i tot u trusted mii...
bud u din...
u betrayed my trust in u tuu...
u lied again n again...
u acted as though u din knw...
u made mii feel stupid..
i tot i was bad...
and i din knw who was reali the one who was bad
until i read your blog...
so tings lyk tis...
u made it seem as though it was our fault...
wen i tried tuu tok tuu u n smile tuu u...
u ignored mii...
wen u finally gave mii a smile,
i din hv the time tuu smile bac..
cos i was shocked...
shocked tuu see tt u will actually smile at mii...
my smile came,bud it was tuu late...
u have alreadi turned awae...
i managed tuu tok tuu u sumtimes during choir..
i was happie...i alwaes wanted tuu tell sem or xin...
cos i knw dey will b jealous...
u din appreciate our tots..
u din even knw a ting...
u hv no rights tuu call us tt...
we din lie tuu u..
we din take u awaes frm your fwens...
u were the one who banned us frm u..
u make it tuu seem as though u are the one who is the innocent party...
who is being hurt harmfully by three harmful parties..
who tried tuu "steal" u awae frm your fwens..
who lies tuu u...
who u tink is unwilling tuu tok tuu u....
y mux u blame us for tt wen we din even blame u??
we tried tuu understand your plight..
we din even force u....
we let u go though we were unwilling tuu...
and yet...we get tis...
i cant ever forget the times we had tog....
once so happy n playful...
ppl reminded mii of u..
sayin how dey missed us running about so "high"...
sayin how dey miss the happy n tog us...
especially during sec 1 wen we were alwaes laughin..
we alwaes had the laughin gas in us...
we were alwaes tog...
we make tings for u...
cos we cared for u...
you were the one whom we all cared most about...
we treated u as a treasure...
u treated us as grass...
u once said u would nv b able tuu do without mii cos i was dere tuu pat u..
and now...whenever u see mii..."oh hi..."
and tts the end of it...we ran out of lines...
our courage tuu face each other has gone into our weakness..
admit tt u are scared tuu face us..
admit tt u cant face us as u r guilty...
admit u lied tuu us..
we din back stab u....
we reali din...we were alwaes dere tuu support u...bud u din choose our support...u went on tuu tt jerk...and left us behind...u make it seem as though we were the ones who left u...
bud reali...u were the one who left us...
im sorrie if we left such an impression in u...and im glad tt u had tried tuu even smile bac tuu us...if u smile at mii once again,i'll smile bac tuu u...
we have nv forgotten bout u once angel...
we love u tuu much tuu do tt...we reali love u...
______dead`roses`living`dead
