Friday, July 07, 2006
"today saw him and angel walkin from th general officehahas! me and hazel de first reaction is the samesaid opps together and turned back!!! hahasi believe cos we hav nothing to sayand dunno how face dem if we meet"
tt was frm sem de blog...and yahs...my reaction n hers...haiix...seriously i miss angel alot alot...dey ask mii wad happen tuu mii n angel...and i reali duno wadda sae...haiix...i dun wan it liddat lehx...haiix...last time if i sad or wad i could reali rely totally on her...and it was lyk totally...she say all those comforting words...den i would slowly stop crying...though sumtimes i remember blaming her for nt crying tog wib mii...haiix...
went cwp...was alone for almost an hour liddat...jux kept on walkin n walkin...it is good tuu jux go walkin by yourself...at least i wun hv tuu b bothered or wad bahx i guess...den i sms n all tt...feel lyk tokin tuu yy...den call him...den he sae he at daryl de house...kays...den i was lyk...haiix...so least i had yl tuu tok tuu bahx...
yl came...den arcade awhile...den we toked n toked...and im kinda sorries tuu yl for cryin on the phone kks...i made myself swear nt tuu cry bud i still cried in the end..haiix...thx tuu yl...and thx tuu food lar...mii n yl went mos cos i felt lyk eatin sumtin...go dere...den sit dwn...den i buy fries...den the person gave sum kinda yellow sause liddat...den i duno wads tt...tuu mii it was lyk cheese...budden yl said it was mayonise...
den he sae mayb expired le..hahas...den i realise i couldnt finish the fries...haiix...den i buy drink...den i took three packets of the chilli,pour out,den reali couldnt eat animore...tink i was being stupid lar....haiix...yl managed tuu tahan mii though...and thx tuu him i managed tuu laugh...
we went bac arcade...den daryl n yy came...onli play one game or two i guess...den jux go hme le...
it was silence bahx...i guess...frm mornin...till den...till...
was on the bus...den i went straight tuu the back of the bus....saw him walkin away...it hurts sia...haiix...
i went bac tuu tt corridor...my spot...walk past those walls again...den tears started flowin again...
some stupid gangsters were dere lyk making fun of mii...den one came over n was lyk dun cry kays gurl...den he smile so i smile bac...
came home went tuu my bed....was waitin n waitin...budden dere wasnt any smses or calls...
den yl sms mii...haiix...sae out everytin..haha...den eh sae he worse den mii...if i tink of him den will laugh cos he's worse...pls lar...i wun laugh at u de hur!!!
dinner...i kept on eatin sia...
ate alot i tink....den drink water n eat again...
till now...i still feel lyk eatin though im vry vry vry vry full...
haiix...
i love u tuu
though yahs...mayb was both of our faults bahx...
i guess...
suan le bahx...im tryin hard tuu cheer up...
remembered u told mii tuu smile...i wan u smile also...though tears are still dere,im tryin hard le bahx i guess...
i wanna eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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