Friday, May 19, 2006
cuts...haiix....
i told deric tuu dun lyk tt tuu sem...make her feel miserable...he himself is also miserable...haiix...for mii..of cos i wouldnt want sem tuu b wib him larx....he is a tiger in the cave...haiix...haiix...budden...haiix...i cant c....i duno how much he reali lyks her or wad rit...so i jux try tuu do my best in consolin him n teasin him n watever sorts of tings...budden now...he seems so saddened hurx...haiix....
YL....haiix...i know i know...i shldnt hv gone tt "near" tuu u hurx... haiix....den mayb ppl wun b so wu hui lerx...haiix...i know n i know...mayb i know tuu much...haiix...im sorrie if it was my fault aniwaes...haiix...i dun lyk u aniwaes...haha....tuu mii....u r jux sumone whom i pour out everytin tuu....n im jux sumone whom u pour out everytin tuu....haiix...why will ppl wu hui ne???haiix...i hv told him so mani tings de...n its lyk he is sumtimes the onli one who knows...bercos mayb i trust him alot??
haiix...is tis a form of jealousy or wad hurx....or hatred???do all those spamin in his blog for wad??haiix....i feel sad for both of dem aniwaes...haiix...
sem...haha...if u forget bout tt guo guo n finally can lyk one of these ppl....reject the other harshly hurx...or else...i reali duno wadda do le...since both of dem keep on sayin all these....n tt deric is no stop i love her...yl i haiix haiix...i jux want tuu let u know tt mayb dey r seroius bahx...tt deric attitude reali got prob bahx...haiix...no matter is wad kinda desicion...we r gonna support u aniwaes derx...haiix...
i feel so stupid now....stressed up le???haiix...the person whom i tot i lyk...i dun tink so now...n tt person also dun lyk mii ler aniwaes...haiix...wads the use den???haiix...aniwaes...tt was mayb jux sum stupid moments tt i tot of...haiix...hamster ner???haiix...no more goin abc tuu the past le...past is past...livin in the present is so damn hard...haiix...im still tinkin bout wad ray said...haiix...bud he nv tell lmii tuu go stead or wad rit..so i can dun nidda tink bout tt hurx...haiix...all those tings he sae on msn...made mii tink hard n hard....haiix...mayb i am at fault hurx...y mux ppl wu hui jidangao as a flirt???i dun reali tink tt he is larx...or mayb euu'll r gonna sae i tuu tian zhen again??haiix...i will of cos stand by yl...bud tt is onli cos i know him much beta...n tt i "love" him as a god bro...he was my companion wen i wanted tuu cry hurx....haiix...n i reali duno bout the rest ler....wad the smses n all...haiix....i dun wanna know....its tuu complicated tuu know...cryin out seems lyk a last hope...jux keep on singin n singin hurx...haiix...
okies...i wan no pity frm tis post....no one pities ppl aniwaes...haiix....cos no one cares for other ppls feelings...
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