[DEAD`LIVING`ROSES]

Thursday, August 04, 2005

i tot euu were angry...reali...i reali went tuu the swing tt side...bud there was ppl...so i hid behind the wall...then cry...when i felt tt i won cry infront of euu,i came out n called euu...budden euu sounded lik vry angry lik tt...i know..i lik suddenly go mad lik tt rit???bud tt reali was her...i told euu she was on the bus n euu didnt believe mii....i'm not on gd terms wib her...tts why she won call mii...its moii fault aniwae...sigh...was shocked when saw euu there....didnt know euu go back boi tt side derx...sori...i tot euu angry marx...tts why cry...then euu sae euu don believe....why should i lie tuu euu???wherelse can i go???cerlyn cry also...i hate tis!!!guys r always der reason tt gurlx cr y...especially for cerlyn's case...mus sm always react lik tt???stupid shi quan!!!make her cry on her bd...i was so angry i reali felt lik hitting him!!!bud i jus lik scolded him...hate all derx guys in moii class!!!then got wad police tok....i found out tt i nv bring moii wallet again...i'm trying real hard not tuu be so emotional...tried...reali...i dunno....i reali dunno why...if i jus feel sad,tears will automatically flow out...i don wan them tuu...then i was being oulled all the way buai cerlyn tuu 1/1...i didnt beliecve her sia...then pull mii until whole arm red...sigh...feel lik i'm a soft toy...always get pushed and pulled around...i knw i vry idiot lorx...ii can see tt for moiiself...a;ways sho damn childish...don bhave lik a teen at all...always so emotional and rely so much on ppl...bud somehow,tts mii...i cant change the way i am...i don wan tuu...somehow,i feel moiiself changing...lik tuu laugh alot last time....bud now...i dunno why bud i cant laugh...don hv derx energy or don feel lik laughin animore...wad i do most is cry...lock moiiself in the room and cry...i'm jus so dumb...i always am...then mus write the teachers dae thingy,i write for miss angie yeo cos don dare write for others...i know miss yeo won scold mii...then i won regret writing tuu her..as for the rest,i know tt mdm nora,haslinda,harn,ng and lots more,i would regret...so i choose her...i feel lik sain tuu somone,fwens nomore...i hate euu somehow...tattletale...bigmouth...so much so for everyting...all tis gurl knows now ish cry...cos she is gettin more n more dumb...i hate moiiself...somehow,feeling vry vry dizzy...everydae happens...i'm breaking down soon....

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